AY2022/23 Semester 1 Module Ramblings

060523 (long overdue)

You know it’s a real ethics class when theres at least one insult about how useless sudoku is during the lesson on axiology. Or just morals. We’ve got to target sudoku, always. Else it ain’t a real ethics class.

Pre-Semester Reflections

<redacted for cringe>

That Delulu Part of the Semester

I’m not sure why but there appears to be a theme of “history” in all my mods this semester. Like variations on history. But none of them are HY coded.

CL1101E

Actual legit history.

Well i got what I expected. Including the language barrier. Legit history about the evolution of Chinese language and also how people migrated and how southern Chinese dialects are actually Vietnamese??? and its quite cool but why do i feel like those foreign students…i don’t know what i feel about them. Hey, it’s not that bad really. They’re civilized. Not like the bunch i met at Xin Wang Hong Kong Café at Kent Ridge the other time.

CS3203

Reflecting on my history and finding myself amongst the ashes.

Surprise no surprise no chopsticks and no forks and I did not find myself. Hah! Look at this fool, trying to find themselves through a fucking software engineering module.

CS3219

History of zero indexing

You know how the KWIC search engine improvement thing is actually hella cool. This is probably the part I enjoyed most about this module. It ought to be full application, idek why theres a final exam. And like I don’t know enough about software in the real world to be able to judge how relevant and up-to-date the stuff being taught is. And my teammate (who is a human, the only one in our group) probably taught me more about SWE than both the lecturers. Now if only my memory wasn’t impaired by a lack of sleep. I cant stand SWE anymore. There is now doubt about “whether [I] could actually hold down a job” (according to Denji). Because im so fucking disorganised.

CS4225

Starring chaos, peace as the interim between war.

Feels like I learnt nothing. I mean the return of Java was cool. I like Java. But like for how little was taught, it actually gave me more PTSD than learning. Like, the AI / clustering stuff triggered my CS2220 PTSD. I don’t know if this means that i should avoid these topics like the plague, or should i try to improve my constitution by exposing myself more to these topics so that it stops reminding me of bad stuff, like some kind of fucked up auto-cognitive-behavioral-therapy thing. Mainly for this class im just pissed at the department for not giving Bryan enough budget. Like seriously fucking hell it’s a mezzanine module with like 300 undergrads and 200 postgrads and all they have is like 5 TAs and all the postgrad TAs are fucking useless. (Ok I exaggerated its 293 UGs and 118 PGs.) The only useful TA was the undergrad and even then theres like not much she can do also.

PH3250

This timeline is just one of many timelines.

But really this is more math than I have ever encountered, more math even compared to CS3230. More math than I am comfortable with. Which reminds me I have a paper due tomorrow that i have not started on. I actually don’t really care whether or not we have a desert landscape, because it paints a nice picture either way. The possible worlds stuff is wack af, how do these analytics even do it and take themselves seriously?

PH4206

Literature as history

Hume says he hates metaphysics but what he is giving is basically a metaphysics of epistemology. The theory of ideas is metaphysics. fite me. You can even see some elements of mereology in it. And also, it’s great to do literature as history. Why do I say this? Because we are literally studying one book (or two), and analysing what a person is saying, and this makes it literature. But it is done in such a??? Accurate? Unbiased? Non-inferential? Way that it becomes kinda like history. And literature as history is better than history as history, because unless we can be skeptical about the integrity of the manuscript, else we have accurate af evidence about what one person has ever written and thus a “map” of their brain. Whereas historical evidence is prone to forgery and often inaccurately reported. Also why does Hume use a fork? Because philosophers can’t afford a pair of chopsticks. (This joke is too overused.) Ok I’ll see myself out now.

PH4214

History as a sermon

Just to be clear it was the lecture on Schelling where I started getting sermon vibes. And Kierkegaard really hyped and intensified the vibes. Like, would be cool to read some Camus and think about offing myself. Oh, we did not do that. These are some things that once you see you can never unsee. I think the best thing here is that I am kinda inspired to read again. Read like, Dostoyevsky, Tolstoy, and also Hugo. The vibes here are huge, and im also inspired to turn into Ubermensch and begin my hot ambiguous non-binary person winter arc (not a hot girl summer that’s too basic).

Post-Semester

Well now I’m not motivated to actually W-R-I-T-E an actual review. Wait, when have I ever written an actual review?

Maybe just like predictions then. And extra stuff if I feel like it. but even for this it seems like i am afraid of something.

CL1101E

Predicted: B+ (but i can S/U it. but damn.)

Actual: A+

Surprised but not too amused. On the one hand I could barely read the question paper. On the other hand taking 1k as a Y4 kinda does feel like smurfing.

CS3203

Predicted: B

Actual: B, Got FiredTM

Well that happened.

CS3219

Predicted: B+

Actual: A

Guess who got carried! Lol they hate me.

CS4225

Predicted: B+

Actual: A-

Ah..kinda disappointed. Would of wanted an A because i usually think of myself as being at the top of the curve but i guess i no longer am. Or fuck everyone in the class lol. Yall mad. And i will be pissed if Spy and Heather did better…ugh.

PH3250

Predicted: B+

Actual: A+

Pleasantly surprised considering I was high on sleep deprivation for both essays and basically had to prostrate myself and beg for the first assignment :”).

PH4206

Predicted: B+

Actual: A

But still aint enough for the effort i put in for this class.

PH4214

Predicted: B

Actual: A-

Disappointed but guess I should’ve known from the start because this was the grade for both papers lol, so not really surprised.

 

Uhh.. whats with the predictions this year lol.

Postscript

Recently, meaning the past few days. Ok maybe the past few weeks. Or months! Ive suddenly had acute <redacted> dysphoria (probably triggered by being <redacted> by Denji back in June’22). I don’t know why. Ive never had much problem with having <redacted> in the past, even if i may have had liked dressing <redacted> since like 2017. But recently ive been wanting to get a double <redacted>. <Redacted>. Or at least get a <redacted> and an <redacted> to stop my <redacted>. I want to cut my hair and <redacted>. I don’t know why. Like, bitch youre about to buy a HOUSE fgs. But then again i never intended to follow through with it.

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