AY2021/22 Semester 2 Module Ramblings

 

CS3203 Software Engineering Project

Expected Grade: B / B+

Actual Grade: B

Rating: 1/5                    

It made me cry (multiple times) but because of the supportive people around me I did not end up yeeting. Everything is useless. Class, teammates...etc. Three of us could probably complete a 6-person project because that’s how useless everyone else is. No one knows how to think of an algorithm. Everyone’s just concerned with copying code to a tee. I won’t even be surprised to get an F because of how fucked the plagiarism score would be if they actually checked. And the requirements are fucking all over the place and we only learnt of one of the requirements after the project was submitted because of how unclear and hard to find they were.

Post Results: Terrible. It’s simply terrible. The structure and organization of the module is terrible, and the grouping is terrible, and my groupmates are terrible and so am I. Everything is shit.

CS3223 Database Systems Implementation

Expected Grade: B+ / A-

Actual Grade: A+

Rating: 4/5

Someone once told me that *everyone* attends the first lecture, and then attendance slowly trickles off. Uh well not me, for this mod. I have never once attended any of the lectures. Hmm perhaps this is why I am lagging behind the content by about more than 6 weeks now?

Post Results: Well, this is really really surprising. I definitely did not put in enough consistent effort to deserve an A+. the only explanation I can think of to explain this is my natural talent at algorithms and general exam taking skill, because mids and finals were a large part of this module. But there wasn’t event that much algorithm in this module. Not sure what all the fuss is about. Low effort class because lectures only take half of their allocated time (to watch at 2x speed). The project was hell tho. Staying overnight in school two days in a row to rush the project is a no go.

PH4203 Issues in Moral Philosophy

Expected Grade: A- / A

Actual Grade: A

Rating: 3/5

Once class became hybrid it was *annyeong* from me, sorry. But it was fun while it lasted, kinda. I don’t recall much, but this is only as much as I understood. Moral reasons are like crème de la crème of the abstract because you will be trying to deconstruct the validity of an action based on … things. i will go into the first 15 minutes of class being like ok, this is an interesting theory of reasons. But always end up becoming lost.

Post Results: I have to say this module had an interesting mode of instruction, even for philosophy classes. Something similar to the second half of PH3252. But for the entire module. Which means that a substantial proportion of class is student presentations and small group discussions based on questions provided by student presenters. And then reconvening to share what we discussed during small group discussions. But you know what. Once it changed to zoom / hybrid, group discussion was non-existent. I am not sure if it is because of me. But my “breakout rooms” were always “coffee breaks”. Not that I hated it, since class was at 9am. I mean, there’s a high chance that I am actually the problem, lol.

PH4210 Topics in Western Philosophy

Expected Grade: A- / A

Actual Grade: A

Rating: 5/5

Dogs have 4 legs, as long as no one goes around removing one leg from every dog, that is. I probably shouldn’t laugh. I probably also shouldn’t for any reason at all support the banning of pit bulls in estates, even if it’s a place with many young children. I might’ve come across as a dog-hating psychopath. But believe me, I have nothing against dogs. ISTG I’m still anti-natalist, Zeke please don’t scream at me.

Post Results: Is it bad that the main reason this module caught my eye is because it has no individual presentations? And also, because I know that the prof is quite liberal with granting extensions despite the stuff that he posts on the school portal being quite threatening. So, I took this class despite not knowing what it is about and ended up quite enjoying it.

Conclusion

The semester was pretty much hell.

Internship search was hell. Should’ve trusted my gut when I always say that I almost had to take an involuntary gap year back in 2019. You thought semester was tough?

And currently at internship I’ve been completely played. I should’ve gone the other place. They ask me what I’m doing and I, I can’t even say a thing because of how meaningless it is. Not even because of the confidentiality NDA and whatever shit. I would love to describe in detail what my code does because that, that would light a fucking fire in me, and I would feel alive again what the actual fuck. but there’s no code to speak of. Just useless Excel sheets, useless emails, useless trackers, useless forms, useless teams’ messages. At this rate i would be fucking grateful even if I had to write fucking HTML. Worthless paper tossing. And maybe it’s just that team, but what sort of trashy corporate culture is it if we are supposed to set a 30-minute meeting do something that can be done by one person in like 5 minutes if those adults actually bothered to do their stuff.

But now that i read the JD, which was sent to me before the interview, it does describe what i am doing. Nothing. NOTHING. It’s just fancy ass words. “Follow up to closure” actually means “chase and bug them to fix an issue that can be fixed but no one wants to fix so they’re just gonna ignore your chasing and become annoyed because you are just a lowly intern how dare you tell them to do stuff?”

The boss won’t be happy to hear this, but the things that we are supposed to do is impossible because no one wants to do them. Besides, it is against my values to force people to do things that they do not want to do.

300522, 0000h: an example of a thing which has been tasked to us is, sending an email to 5 or so regulars and cc-ing the interns, he has requested us to chase the regulars to do the things mentioned in his email. What makes him think that if they aren’t gonna do it when he tells them to, they will do it when puny interns ask them to? Fucking absurd. They are like, fucking not ready to have interns. And yet they hired us for fucks sake. There is literally nothing productive to do. Supposedly there is a “release” in June, and after that when they are not so near to the big deadline, they will be able to give us proper things to do. But I’m not feeling optimistic.

170622: is it normal, when choosing modules, to be interested in everything? Unfortunately, my time in school is limited, and I am doing a double degree and i don’t even know if i can even graduate. I mean, I’d love to take 40 MCs and learn to chill the fuck out and be satisfied with a second upper. Or be satisfied with just getting a degree, even a second lower or a third. Because i know i have the skills, and if not, i have the skills needed to learn any other skill. And also, I haven’t paid a dime to be in school, thus far, apart from the opportunity cost of my time. But.

Something to add about internship is…science park. I wanna be at science park around there. Eve, Rei, my boyf, are all working there. Whereas my office is at some weird ulu location that takes literally 4 different busses to reach. I wanna be at the science park area, even if it meant like 2 hours of travel every day. I want to learn MERN on the job, instead of being tasked to do nothing / unspiring saikang.

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