AY2021/22 Semester 1 Module Ramblings

 16/02/22

The only thing that can be found here is scat and toilet jokes, really. 

CS2102 Database Systems

Expected Grade: A-/A

Actual Grade: A-

Was this my first time working in a project group with JL? Interesting experience. But yea shes responsible so that’s a good thing.  I think i was the week link in the group lol, a few days before submission they were literally helping me to debug my part of the code. But i did take what was supposed to be the hardest part, so theres that.

I was really excited to take this module after hearing about normalisation and stuff during internship. But reality is often disappointing. Also, relational algebra is some tough shit. I think i got the hang of sequel but for a while it was literally greek to me.

CS2106 Introduction to Operating Systems

Expected Grade: W

Actual Grade: W

I dropped this because i realised i could. Was a bad decision on hindsight. But whats done is done, i guess. The labs were tough, but i heard that those which i didn’t do were even worse. Something about concurrency and threads and balls and buckets and restaurant tables.

C is not a nice language to use, lol.

CS2220 Introduction to Computational Biology

Expected Grade: B/B+/A-/A

Actual Grade: A-

I shouldve dropped this instead, lol. It ended up destroying me. Yknow i learnt never to give anyone my assignment answers ever again. (But fucking Rei did it again, today, giving away my fucking intellectual property.) Because people are unappreciative. Dude what the fuck if i didn’t help you your second assignment woudlve been fucked up. And they went on to not start on the project until the very day before the presentation. And then being confusing af. And i was stressed and i was ripped apart after having a panic attack and breaking my (months?) long streak being clean from yeeting lol. And they continued to be tear me apart every moment they can lol. Such as setting a meeting timing and then being no show for almost an hour and then sending a message just when i left to use the loo for a few minutes and then being aggressive af when i replied after 5 minutes saying that their time was fucking precious lol. Ptsd. And then proceeded to make me fail the project by belittling my contributions and effort lol. Fucking assholes, 0/10, would not recommend. I would of fucking balls’ed up and did the project alone if i knew this was gonna happen lol.

Other than that, the programming assignments that used algorithms were pretty fun. It satisfied my need for Java. I didn’t understand much of the bio but not like that even fucking matters, fucking fuck my life. I hate myself. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

FAS1101 Writing Academically: Arts and Social Sciences

Expected Grade: A-

Actual Grade: A

This has gotta be like my…third? Writing and communication mod. What is the point of this mod? My tutor was rad tho. He made class so much better. And surprisingly my tutorial class had no y1s. All y2 and y3. The most surprising thing i learnt was perhaps being able to make APA7 citations without citation machine. A good skill to have.

I went into this mod thinking that i would explore the history topic. And it would have been probably just the right tutorial class to do so, because my tutor specialises in history. And also because i miss doing history since JC. But the philosophy (death penalty) topic was much easier to understand because i have some experience with reading philosophy papers. So im glad i stuck to something familiar instead of something nostalgic lol. Most FASS students take this mod in their first year, i think. So if the y2s and y3s are taking this they probably don’t have a strong command of the language? Maybe it is the juxtaposition. Maybe i am not as trash as i think i am. But my tutor likes my writing style and that was a good thing.

PH2241 Philosophy of Mind

Expected Grade: A

Actual Grade: A

Probably my most chill mod of the sem. I went for the first lecture on my ipad and thoroughly embarassed myself by messaging a classmate instead of answering everyone because the chat automatically selects the last person who answered. So i stopped attending synchronous lectures. The papers were pretty fun to do, i would say. No more of the black cat nonsense but i did have some descartes and robot stuff to write about. Only thing i regret is being a snake for the first quiz, choosing a different answer from the rest of the group after we had discussed. If i didn’t do that, i would have gotten full marks for the quiz. Too bad.

PH3230 Normative Ethical Theory

Expected Grade: A

Actual Grade: A

Another fun mod, though slightly less chill cos there were forums and classes were every week and i had to participate in front of over thirty people. And the presentation killed me lol. It was a pair thing, but after i was done, i went into the toilet and stoned for almost an hour thinking about how much of an awkward tard i am and how i embarassed myself. As i was walking out of the toilet i happened to see another classmate walking out of the lecture hall with the prof, they were probably discussing some questions after the class. And i had to hide because i just spent the last hour in the toilet and that’s pretty pathetic.

Essays were fun to write too. Again, no black cats but we have depression and mountain climbing, and that almost makes up for it. Prof’s comment on my second essay brought out the prophetic cat though. 

PH3252 Introduction to Philosophy of Mathematics

Expected Grade: A-

Actual Grade: A

Probably the most technically demanding mod of the sem. Because i never understood the readings since the first week and towards the end i just gave up. But it was ok because class was small and i could ask dumb questions without excessive mortification lol. It’s a really interesting… uhm… introduction to metaphysics? Never before in my life have i questioned the nature of numbers, but now i do. The fact that the class is at 9am probably takes abit away from the “fun” factor, but other than that it was fun lol. Individual presentations surprisingly killed me only a little. But yknow what. The day before the presentation i woke up multiple times during the night because of diarrhea. And the whole morning i was in and out of the loo. Might have been a bug. Or perhaps even the ‘rona. Luckily during the presentation the stress kept me from the stomachache. But once it ended i started hurting REAL BAD again.

The essays were less fun, i have to admit, because i don’t understand the readings and i didn’t do them. Philo of math is more fun as a “argue in class” rather than as an “argue on paper” thing.

Conclusion

I had like 3? Mods with “intro” in their title, so i was hoping like, they would, you know, spare me. Because they are supposed to be fucking intro mods. I mean, they were intro mods in their own right. So, i cant really complain.

Regrets were dropping 2106 instead of 2220

I wanted to focus less on grades this semested but i still ended up being a fucking ball of stress because it is simply not in my nature to allow myself to do badly. I don’t know what it is. It fills me with an anger to think that others would do better than me. JL, Rei, Hans, Eve, my boyf. I know i can afford to do badly for y3s1, for y3s2. Because i don’t plan to do FYP, i simply need to maintain a second 2.5 SAP for CS from y3s2 onwards for my second upper. But but but. Why cant i just fucking let it gooooooooo. And why do i care so much about my CAP for philo when one of the reasons i applied for ddp was literally to decouple my caps. I don’t know. I enjoy philo more than cs now. Life is bad.