Mental Health in the Middle of Hell Week


Normal me is a constant state of “oh crap am I gonna die” and “I want to kill myself” and “fuck life”. But not all is dark up here. Maybe people don’t know that. Or they do not think that that is possible. But I am part cinnamon roll too. I love and I care too. And I am warmth too. Maybe less sunshine and more the burning embers of hell. But I can be warm too. Especially when I realize that someone is suffering more than I am. Someone whom I care about. And whom I want to protect.
And in view of the fact that some people are harming themselves by like, cutting themselves with a blade, or other hurtful, painful, and dangerous methods, here is a list of things that I propose a person who wants to harm themselves can do instead.
1.      Shaving. I recently bought a new straight edge razor. Not to cut myself with. But for actual shaving. And like, I wanted to do my own hair someday and that seems like a useful tool.
2.      Drawing seems to help on yourself. On paper. Anything.

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