030721 At the start of the semester, or rather, before the start of Year 2 Semester 2, I had set myself 3 non-academic related goals to accomplish. Is it hubris? Anyway, I knew that the academic grades can’t be too bad, considering my past record. So, I didn’t concern myself with setting goals for academics, I just let it be, and take it as it comes while trying my best. I guess even amongst all that rock-bottom self-confidence, all that moping, all that saying that I’m gonna die, all of the crying, I guess somehow, I subconsciously know that I can actually do it, quite well, satisfactorily enough. Except this voice is drowned out by the other hostile voices, which are much louder and more aggressive. “Intrusive thoughts”, as they are termed. Well, that was quite a tangent, but I must go back to the 3 goals I set for myself. 3 things I needed to do. 1. Start getting help for my mental health. I guess it mostly means starting to get on meds. And therapy. But mainly the
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