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 18/11/20   (18/11/20) Only reason I am turning back to this is because it seems long overdue. And this current semester is ending soon, and it reflects badly on me (to myself) if I am still not done with this after like, half a year. But let’s not deny the fact that the main reason for this is because I am procrastinating actual studying. (25/05/20) Hey hey, ho ho, my procrastination has got to go. This is the second essay thing I have started on when I am supposed to be working on my 5 goddamn projects. Urghhhhh.   The end of this semester concludes my first year at NUS. It has been…a lot. A lot of studying, a lot of trying too hard, a lot of trying to be a snake and ending up getting snaked. A lot of having my social anxiety be confronted to the max. I took 24 MCs this semester, which was bad because it is a lot of work, but also good because bless Corona which happened, taking everything online, and giving us more S/Us to use which I may need. This sem...

 23/10/20 Dissociative Identity Disorder. Its not my place to say anything about it. But there are people out there claiming to be a DID system or, 5, 6, 7, however many there are. Calling each other Host. Referring to themselves as We. And yet when push comes to shove thy use “I” instead of “We”. I must admit that there is some merit in embracing it as DID, and acknowledging that sometimes, you are not yourself. You cannot control the things you do, and you cannot remember what you did. However, how much of this is just trying to be a special snowflake? Personally, I as a host will not want to have so many people inhibiting my body. I would not go as far as to allow them to give themselves names. Its “Me”, and “Not Me”. A dichotomy. There is sane / sober / rational me. And then there’s crazy fuck me who is out of control and wants to destroy its host, me. It is a nameless ghost. Perhaps that is trivializing it. Only in the sense that we are bringing spirituality into this ...

 16/10/20 The Principle of Credulity is the idea ­ that any account of an experience should be treated as veridical in the absence of a defeater. This is used in defense of mystical and non-mystical religious experience, where people report sensing the divine. A veridical experience is one where the object of the experience exists in reality. in testimonies of religious experience, some people report that they feel the presence of God. Well, God is not bound by the laws of physical time and space, and hence cannot be proven to be present in the physical world by empirical methods. As such, how might one believe an experience of “sensing God” to be veridical? That’s where the Principle of Credulity comes into play. A defeater is a fact or piece of evidence which will disprove, or cast doubt on a particular experience. For example, if a drunk says that he sees a green flying rabbit back in the other room, the fact that he was under the influence of intoxicating substances like a...